A text forward inspired by Ate Dee

here goes the text:

describe me in one word. just one! send it to me then send this message to 10 friends and see how many wonderful/strange things people think of you.

here's what my friends say about me:

• wla k n namang magawa no! ano n nman naisip mo? cguro homesick ka. cge na nga, here's one word for you: wonderful - glend, one of my closest friends
• friendly - janice, ex-bf's bestfriend
• thoughtful - migs, close friend from college
• intellectual - nhel, friend from high school
• understanding - henry, MY1G8LV
• sexy - lorn, close friend from elementary
• beautiful (inside-out) - irene, my bestfriend
• helpful - jay-r, cousin
• thoughful - teten, (future?) sis-in-law
• responsible - angel, x ko
• determined - annie, close friend from college

Closer, the movie

I finally watched "Closer" (Julia Roberts, Jude Law and Natalie Portman) last night. It is such a weird movie. I am not sure if I understood its totality although in parts I did get it. A lot of the things they've tackled happen in relationships... love in different degrees, obsession, jealousy, greed, lust, letting go, goodbyes, etc... but it's hard to understand what the director/writer's message is to its viewers. The storyline is quite simple but it makes you think very deeply about love and life. Well, maybe, that's what it's all about! It was made to help us question love, define it for ourselves, and to finally realize who we are, what we want, and how these realizations affect others we meet along the way.

Here's some things to think about:

• Julia's husband, the dermatologist, said that there are people, like Julia's character in the movie, who likes being unhappy no matter how much they deny it. Happines is right in front of them and yet they will choose something or someone that they know will make them unhappy. They gravitate to the unhappiness, depression, and the drama.
• Natalie: "I only leave someone when I don't love him anymore." Do we really get over that love? Isn't there always some kind of love that's left in our heart even after we break up or separate with our partner? Could she also mean that we should not leave someone we still love?
• What does love really mean? Why is it so hard to give sometimes when we ourselves want it?
• Is there such thing as unconditional love between lovers? Where do you draw the line between obsession, loving someone no matter what, and abuse?
• How many of us have fallen in love with someone we don't really know? Be together for a few years... break-up... then realize "do you really know who that person was?" You believe everything they tell you, and yet you find out things that surprise you about that person. DO you really know the person you're with right now?
• Forgive and forget. I wish it's that easy.
• We all are capable of deceit. What drives us to be that way?
• The movie ended the same way it started. Four desperate people, longing for love and yet running away from it. Makes me wonder: Do we really learn anything from past mistakes? If we do, why do we end up in the same situation we were in before? Is it fate or choice?

LIFE LESSON: you are your life's architect... but you have a supplier, engineer, contructor, workers, and government permits' department that just keep messing up with your perfect plan. Such is life!

Kababata ba kita?

KABABATA BA KITA? Knows mo ba ito? --When you were young, did u ever experience this?

*Kumakain ka ba ng aratilis minsan straight from the tree pa nga?

*You used the Gumamela para gawing soapy bubbles na hihipan mo sa binilog na tanggkay ng walis tingting?

*Your mom or dad wants you to sleep pag hapon at di ka papayagan maglaro pag di ka natulog ?

*Marunong ka magpatintero at ingat ka sa patutot, knows mo ang langit-lupa at luksong tinik?

*Malupit ka na pag meron kang atari, family computer ?

*You have clothes like Boy London, Cross Colors, Esprit, Blowing Bubbles at pag nakakakita ka ng Bench na damit alam mo na mahal ang bili dun at naalala mo si Richard Gomez?

*You are addicted to Rainbow brite, carebears, my little pony, Thundercats, bioman, voltes v, mazinger z, daimos, he-man at marami pang cartoons na hindi pa translated sa tagalog?

*Nanonood ka ng Shaider kasi nabobosohan mo si annie at type na type mo ang puting panty nya?

*Inaabangan mo lagi ang Batibot at akala mo magkakatuluyan sina kuya bodgie at ate sienna... nung high school ka favorite mo ang Beverly hills 90210?

*Gumagamit ka ng AQUANET para pataasin ang bangs mo?

* Isa ka sa mga umiyak at halos di nakakain ng 2 araw when Julie Vega died kasi gusto mo sya sa Analiza at si Janice sa Flor DeLuna

*You like signing the Slumbook para lang malaman mo kung sino ang crush ng type mo?

*You know kung sino si Manang bola at ang sitsiritsit girls? e si luning-ning at luging-ging?

*Alam mo ibig sabihin ng time space warp at di mo makakalimutan ang time space warp chant?

*nakakatawag ka pa sa pay phone ng 3 bentesingko lang ang dala? Memorize mo song ni Ding Dong na 3 bente singko

*Cute pa si Aiza seguerra sa Eat bulaga at alam mo na si Lady Lee ang side kick nya sa Aiza's Kiddie Corner

*inabutan mo ba na ang Magnolia Chocolait eh nasa glass bottle pa na ginagawang lalagyan ng tubig ng nanay mo sa ref?

*meron kang pencil case na maraming compartments na pinagyayabang mo sa mga kaklase mo?

*You always wonder kung saan ang Goya Fun Factory?

*Sosyal ka pag may play-doh ka at Lego... at nag-iipon ka ng G.I. Joe action figures at iba pa ang mukha ni barbie noon?

*Inabutan mo pa yung singkong korteng bulaklak at yung diyes na square?

* Pag inutusan ka ng nanay mo bumili ng lutong ulam, 3Piso lang buntot or ulo ng pritong daing na bangus with matching libreng sabaw ng sinigang.

*Nuod ka lagi ng Thats Entertainment at ang Thursday Group ang laging winners ang liit pa ni Billy Joe Crawford at si Ruffa at Dennis da Silva ang loveteam nun.

* Bata ka pa mahilig ka na sa chiszm or chika - Watch ka lagi ng See Tru ni Ate Luds

* Gustong-gusto mo ang kwento ni Lola Basyang- ni Chichay

* Ung mga movies ng Regal Films Trilogy starring Maricel & William- Snooky and Albert at di ko na remember ung isa.

* Regal Babies pa si Mane, Si Sheryl Cruz and Tina Paner

* Your week is not complete if you dont see Okay ka fairy ko, Ang Bagong Kampeon at GMA SuperShow hosted by Kuya Germs, Sharon C, Lani Mercado, Jackilou blanco etc.

* Student Canteen starring Malou Maglutac at Marco Sison pa ang katapat ng Eat Bulaga

* Remember mo si Alma Moreno, Sharon Cuneta at Ate Vi nag-"tangga" in their respective shows for Ratings sake- kaloka!

* U know Randy Santiago's first hit was Hindi Magbabago at Bababaero

* You always expect that Ate Vi will say " I Love you Lucky" sa ending ng show nya


* You can dance " shake.....i-body body dancer ala Maricel Soriano version.

*Meron kang kabisadong kanta ni Andrew e na alam mo hanggang ngayon.. Aminin? Tapos si Michael V. song nya...Maganda ang Piliin

* Naabutan mo pa na pinapatugtog ng Uncle or Aunt mo yung LP ni Victor Wood or Imelda Papin

* Super Kilig ka kay Robin Padilla sa Maging Sino ka Man- at ang cute nya sa leather brown Chaleko at while long sleeves with super tight maong at baseball cap.

* Remember mo pa ang Award Scam at ang Viveka Babaje's famous lines.....Take it.. Take it.....

* Eto malupit- hindi pa uso Starbucks, Kenny Rogers, Tony Romas, etc. kaya sosyal ka na pag nakakain ka sa Cyndys- When you're hungry...Cyndys Its the place to be!

* May isip ka na nung People Power I at na-memorize mo ang song na "Magkaisa"

* Sa Channel 13 nuon they always play the song- Akoy Isang Pinoy ni Florante with matching Pinoys in different aspects of life background. Proud ka na sabayan ang song na ito.

* Pag fiesta sa inyo- sali ka lagi sa Basagang Itlog at Agawang buko- Super Desidido ka talagang manalo ng 5piso

* Para sa mga taga- Manila Wala pang mall nuon kaya masaya ka na sa Luneta at Intramuros. Big Deal na pag nakapunta ka ng Avenida, Recto, Isetann, Sta. Cruz at Harrizon Plaza.

* Kauna-unahan mong high tech gadgets was ung beeper ng pocketbell, walkie talkie, walk man or cellphone na kasing laki ng ewan na nakaka-clip on proudly pa sa bulsa ng maong jeans mo.

* Isa ka sa mga batang pinag-open account ng mama mo sa Banco Filipino

* You like collecting stationeries- inaamoy mo lang at dine-display hindi mo ginagamit really.

* Nagkaroon ka ng puting HIGH-CUT or converse rubber shoes sossy na yon.

* And last but not the least, naabutan mo pa ng .75 centavos lang ang pamasahe noon at feeling Pasko or fiesta talaga pag may Pan amerikano, Ladys choice sanwich spread, liver spread, hotdog, pancit, menudo, spaghetti, queso de bola, ulo ng lechon baboy with matching apple, Tang, eight o clock orange juice or Coke Litro or Fanta sa dining table compared ngayon anytime kaya mo nang bilhin yan, yung iba di na nag-eexist....over! how time flies noh? ang tanda na natin!

KUNG ALAM MO LAHAT DITO LAGPAS KA NA NG 25 YEARS OLD...
KAPAG HALOS LAHAT ALAM MO, NASA 23-25 KA...

WAG KA NA MAG DENY..
HELLER..................TUMAWA KA NA LANG... ..........

LIFE'S LESSON: Have the wisdom of old age but the enthusiasm of the youth.

I'll diet tomorrow... (hay naku ilan beses ko na yan narinig noh!)

My co-workers and I went out to have lunch at this really good Italian restaurant to treat one of our student assistants whose now gonna leave us and work on her internship at a law firm. We had such a great time that it took as almost 3 hours to get back to work. It's all cool though coz my department supervisor was with us, too. I had capellini shrimp (shrimp, angel hair, artichokes, sundried tomatoes in white wine sauce) and grean apple salad with candied walnuts. I'm so full that I even have left over for dinner. Everything was so yummy especially the dinner rolls that they serve with the order. Dang! there goes my diet! Oh, well, I'll start again tomorrow. Lol!!!

LIFE'S LESSON: Don't "diet," have a change of eating habits, a change of lifestyle.

I got my evaluation today...

I got my evaluation here at work today. This is the first one I got eversince I started in 2002. The score ranges form 1 to 4, one being the highest. Very rarely does one get a 1, too, coz that just means that there's no more room for improvement. The grade I got was a 2.35, which basically means that I did ok but there's more room for improvement.

The problem lies with me not having much confidence. My boss thinks that I am smart but I get intimidated easily by my pears. She also thinks that I probably feel that being "firm" is negative, which I do sometimes. She says that I need to learn how to say what's on my mind and not let anyone boss me around or intimidate me.

Bull's eye! She got it right. I know what my weakness is, that is having low self-esteem and lack of confidence, and I need to work on it.

LIFE'S LESSON: Always believe in yourself, or else no body else will.

HoW DiD u KnOw? (by Chiqui Pineda)

I remember so well

The day that you came into my life

You asked for my name

You had the most beautiful smile

My life started to change

I'd wake up each day feeling alright

With you right by my side

Makes me feel things will work out just fine

CHORUS

How did you know

I needed someone like you in my life

That there was an empty space in my heart

You came at the right time in my life

I'll never forget

How you brought the sun to shine in my life

And took all the worries and fears that I had

I guess what I'm really trying to say

It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way

No words can express how much

I love you

Thankful...

Eversince Oprah published her very own O Magazine, I have been a loyal subscriber. It has been my ritual to read the very last page before anthything else. Miss O calls it "What I Know for Sure"... where she writes her thoughts about life, the lessons she's learned, and other really meaningful and inspiring topics. One I'll always remember was written sometime in 2002. Oprah says that we should write a list of at least five things we're thankful for each day. She believes that it is when we are thankful that we become more blessed. Here's a list of the things/people I'm thankful for today...

• blogspot --- for providing free blog sites
• bloggers --- most especially to the ones on my list of favorites. I learn so much from them.
• for having several seasonal part-time jobs apart from my full-time job that I truly enjoy.
• for the wonderful korean bbq dinner i just had... yummy!
• the little booklet of compilation of "What I Know for Sure" articles included on the 5th year anniversary issue of O.
• the first person who left a comment on my blog, which I just started this morning. Joe, thank you for being the first. Hope to visit your blog soon (if you provide me the address, of course).
• the beautiful day here on my beachside town... although I was indoor and asleep for most of the day since i worked from midnight till 8am last night.
• thankful for great friends from way back in high school and elementary. I do miss them so much since we're miles apart.
• thankful for the family I have. Too much drama at times but that's just how it is. We all learn from each other I hope.

LIFE'S LESSON: Be thankful... for everything.

The beginning...

I've been meaning to start a blog for quite a while now, yet I always end up just reading other bloggers' site instead of writing my own. At times, I'd rather be a bystander... someone on the sideline... coz it takes me away from the complexities of my life. But the time has come for me to look at my own journey... maybe by writing about it, I can finally find what I've been looking for... my HAPPINESS... my PURPOSE.